Reflections

The Perfectabs In life we are always trying to compare ourselves to others. We never really look at each other for the real selves. We really for items to make us superior, and seem authoritative, but what counts is what you are without those things including bodily possessions. Money, jewelry, cars, and cloths have an effect on us by believing those things are important to us. People never really look beyond those things, and we respect people for what they have instead of who they are. We end up deceiving ourselves for people by what they do, and have.

It's not what people have, or do those deceive us by believing that they are great people, it's the thoughts we have about people. When believe that when people are successful for what they have is what deceives us. For example when someone has a nice car it does not necessarily mean that they are good people. At times they can be very crooked, and cheated their way in life. When we value these people we value them falsely becuase they were never as good as we thought them out to be.

People think in school especially that it is all about me.

"Dreams are great things, until they become nightmares."

 

"Dreams are great till they turn into nightmares"

-Byron Katie

We never see things as they really are. All we really see in life, until we question what we think about life, is our thoughts, not life, not reality. Here is life-overflowing ever present ever powerful, and then our thoughts come in and it makes life like getting a little pixel from the TV. Just imagine you're watching TV and then you just look at one pixel, grab it and look at it. That wouldn't make much sense; the pixel is just one little color out of the millions that you see on the screen. This is how people see life, just little fragments like our status, beliefs, thoughts about others, labels about you. This doesn't show much about the world just like a pixel. Wouldn't it be insane to depend on your life for those things?

Yet we still go on chasing all these things believing that it will make us happy when all our happiness is here in our awareness. We might go chase a lover, or have a big happy family but you lose the awareness of that moment. What if we fail? We are left out on the streets with pain. No wonder there is so much disproportionate pain with failing when we believe that success will bring us happiness, and we fail. Life is a endless portal, with a million colors, but here we are always on the run. We never really stop and just really enjoy the moment. There is always something more to reach with our fingertips, as we are running from something, but running for something at the same time. Thoughts when they go against reality make us have hell on earth. We then try to push them down, and resist them.

Thoughts, fears, and beliefs take control of us when we have so many of them in our heads. On top of that we believe that more thoughts will help us. Just when we don't stop thinking like thoughts like '

 

People should respect me.

 

I can control how others feel about me.

 

 I feel your energy.

 

I know what you need.

 

 I am worthless.

 

 It's my job to make you happy

 

Life is difficult.

 

 People should be grateful.

 

 My boss should appreciate me.

 

 

 

we meditate our thoughts, we do things that we think we need, we push them down, eat them down with food, get depressed, take drugs but nothing works. We at first think that life is the one at fault...but it isn't it's the thoughts about life. The thing about these thoughts is that they go against what really is happening, and results in pain.

Thoughts, fears, and beliefs seem like a very real thing, when in fact they are the most, beautiful, and so fake things you would ever see. Beautiful because it's what it is, no need to make it negative, and fake because that's what thoughts are. Just as I have a nice car, I could believe that I need that car. And if I believe that while it gets kicked used up, and trashed the dependency toward that car, beliefs, and actions I would take to care for it would be enormous. It would Just utterly insane to live that way, I mean who would live that way especially in America? Cars are no big deal, except when you need them. Just a thought can be so powerful, and make someone so weak. "Thought has divided itself as the controller and the controlled. One fragment of thought trying to control another."-J. Krishnamurti

Balloons are so big and fluffy but just pop them they had nothing but air in them. Just the air it takes to fill it up, our choice to believe in a thought is what fills up the balloon. Without our consent then the balloon falls, and so does the nightmare. When someone calls you stupid you need to fill it up with your power to believe in it, and fly off the ground from your reality. Balloons are great until we fill up the wrongs beliefs, and it doesn't work for everyone only for you.

One time a guy told me that I was stupid. I went immediately to my mind, and yes that is when he was right, stupid because I went to my mind. I believed him then I believe a million and a half things about what he said. He wouldn't have said that if it wasn't true was a very painful thought but nothing more. So I put it up to inquiry. Inquiry was the most loving thing in the world because It let me realize that what I had imagined was stupid was an ugly face so I imagined other peoples faces, my past, and reality was that my face was fine. The thought he wouldn't have said that if it wasn't true was a total lie. Here was my real me, my face, and my thoughts contradicting awareness.

Haven't we all believed our thoughts from time to time? The times when we were prejudice against someone and got to realize it just hurt us in the end because we realized "hey they weren't that bad of a person". The thoughts lied about the person. Who would you be without your thought is a way to realize my mind is trying to paint up the picture when the picture is already painted. This is how the mind works putting a label on everything. It's up to you to decide what is real for you, and pain is a good indicator it isn't real. How many times do we say here comes the revolutionary change for the world so we meditate our thoughts, and everything without knowing the thoughts required you to keep them alive? There is even a song I find ironic is John Mayer - Waiting on the World to Change. The world Is a already beautiful but we think it's our problem, again its our story. Who would you be without the thoughts the world should change?

Moving away from Reality

You could be lying down serenely on your bed. You see the items around you, such as pictures of cars you might have like Ferraris without yearning for them of course. The awareness in the surroundings, and everything so wonderful it seems, and it is. You have so much stillness and joy just to be. Then you might decide to snatch a pillow. Although the loss of awareness might be subtle it's lost. You might get the pillow, it might be the thing that you really thought you needed, and you get your peace back. You call up your partner to join you and they might arrive, but in the interim there goes your harmony. By seeking comfort there goes your comfort.

Finding Reality that never hurts

Reality like a flowing stream of water is plentiful and lovely never hurts you. Maybe it's not something beautiful like we might think like a nice car. It might be a gust of wind, or thinking that you're too fat. You might be in pain, and it hurts it really does, I'm not going to lie. Being fat, and ugly sucks it really does, just so many things don't work and stuff that shouldn't be the way it is.

Wait a minute! That doesn't work I was lying.

Being fat, and "ugly" isn't your problem and wasn't a problem to begin with. At first this seems your reality, a dreadful and ugly one. A simple thought like I shouldn't be fat could make your day from a living heaven to living hell in a second. You go through your day at work and you just are there, but your mind says you have little more extra. This statement contradicts reality because there isn't a little more extra, except that extra thought comparing the two states of body. Here was reality so beautiful, and the thought pushes away from the realism. When you belive the thoughts you hate reailty, and you make into a problem. Then you might hate it go to the gym get lypo. None of these are an efficient solution because they will result in pain. In Reality, reality was not your problem.

It's the thoughts that your body shouldn't be is like saying fuck reality.

Like an orgasm, everything is just in a symphony working together harmoniously.

Reality never hurts. Reality is love, and the mind joins in with the love as things things are.

Misurstandings.

Some people think if I don't think I shouldn't be fat, that I won't go to the gym and work it off. Not true. Its just that now you go to the gym with love and care with your body without the ravaging hate. Heck if you believe that your body or anything is your problem and realize it was your thoughts you just might be tempted to quit the anti-reality membership you had started. There is nothing wrong with improving yourself with what you have NOW, and this is loving reality not fighting with it like wishing for it to be something else. Nothing gets accomplished like that except for pain.

I'll be doing an article specifically on how to do the work.

 

 

Huge

 

 

 

Byron Katie the author of Loving What is one time overweight, and just laid in her bed because she had so many thoughts that she couldn't get up. People told her "get up" just "get up". A simple thing to do, but she couldn't she had so many fears, so many beliefs, how could she. The place was a hostile world for her, when in reality it was a beautiful place, it was her thoughts around the place. She awakened when a roach went over her, and that's when she said, total acceptance, and saw her thoughts as false thing, something ugly.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Moon In The Water - "The moon reflects in the still water clearly. In moving water, although the appearance is different, the moon is still the same." The moon symbolizes our mind, the water our thoughts. The images in the water are reality "reflected." When we look at the reflection and the water becomes disturbed we think that the moon has become disturbed. We don't know that we are only looking at a reflection of the moon and not the moon itself. The ripples in the water are our thoughts, which obscure the reflection. Our true mind is in a different direction, and it remains calm and u

ndisturbed at all times. We take the thoughts and reflections to be our whole mind and completely identify with them. We try to calm the water with more thought, which can never happen. Staring into the water we are asleep, engrossed in the dream of reflections and fantasies. If we were to wake up, we would lift our heads and see the moon, which has been there all along.

Problems - Is anything problematic in nature? It seems that problems only exist in the human mind, when our ideas about reality conflict with reality itself. From this conflict arises resistance, and resistance creates suffering. A natural conclusion to this would be that surrender to reality and acceptance, rather than resistance would eliminate a great deal of our suffering. A line must be drawn however to differentiate between healthy acceptance and complete and total passivity.

When we have a breakdown we have lost the ability to control some aspect of our "life." Or there are things happening in our "life" in which we cannot accept. What is actually breaking down is our idea of what our life should be as well as the boundaries of what our idea of ourselves can accept & still stay intact.

The Sacred Seat - The image of the sitting Buddha exemplifies what meditation is. To sit, physically and mentally, to stop the frantic chase of life. To take a break from trying to become something more, from trying to gain, to maintain, to grasp, to control, stopping everything that implies the future. To meditate is to drop all desire & intention, to release all identifications, to take a vacation from yourself. When thoughts dissipate, there is only awareness, only presence, only freedom.

 

 

 

Well when it rains

Suffer Buster

What is the reason we crave and suffer for things? We don't we just let them slip by us instead like if there was nothing wrong. Why do we cry, and suffer when we lose things? Why does an animal or plant remain completely unmoved when you take something away? Why is it that when something is taken away from us there is so much pain? And the greater question is why we think as if suffering would bring those things back?

As we were all once younger we began to recognize ourselves with that our name. Then we began to equate our name with our desire such as social standing, our possessions, our relationships, and many other things. We began think about ourselves like so;" I want this car". Or "I want to be rich". So when we start to imagine ourselves as being rich, or having a nice car, you actually think that is you. Since you think that imagined you as a rich person are really you, you stride to get that object as if you had to fix yourself or create yourself.

We begin to have a separate sense of self with the word "I". When we create the word I we create ourselves as a separate fragment, forgotten by God. Then "me" wants these things.

 Sooner or later those desires begin to take us over; we burn up so much energy to get to the future. We begin to think that desires are the most important thing in our life because we chase the phantom of ourselves, but really you equate your name with a false made you, a fabrication of the mind. You begin to think that your achievements your psychical looks is the real you. This is root of feeling "not good enough, not complete" because you start to imagine yourself in the future. You need to find out that you are not the one who desires, and then the desires will become irrelevant.

You aren't doing anything anyway when you desire something. You're not doing anything now, it just seems that way. When the 'enlightened' guru realizes that he is not the person who is wanting something and acting, he simply stops believing that he is, but the desires and actions happen anyway because they arise from the totality of Consciousness. A desire happens because everything in the universe has aligned in such a way that this is what happens. Same with the acting on the desire, or not; there's nobody doing it, just someone thinking about it.

So when you finally get there you ask well how come I don't' feel any different? How come people barely find out that happiness is not from materials when they realize that their 5^th car does not give them happiness. You thought that the mind made self was more important than the NOW. The mind made self wants things, and feeds itself from objects, and social standings. When is the real you ever here? NOW! That's all you will ever be in is the now. When your desire comes it will be now. When you start imagining yourself in the future you move away from the now, then the ego says its time to complete myself, because it thinks that thought you created is you. Think of a person you want to be, or whoever you think you are, and then all of a sudden there is a split in you. Besides even you really did want to become someone you did absolutely nothing to plan to get there. This is when desire takes you over unconsciously to become that imagined vision of you.

When we want food, just a simple box of pizza for example there isn't suffering. I don't identify with the pizza, and I don't suffer. Since I'm not looking forward with attaching and identifying me to and the box of pizza there is no trouble. Now if there was some competition of who got the box of pizza the fastest? Automatically you start thinking about yourself, how wonderful you will be. You choose to believe how wonderful you are going to be. Now there will be some sort of craving to go get the box of pizza. Now I will want to go get that box of pizza ASAP. The strangest thing though we don't do this for a box of pizza we do this for many things in our lives. 

Special thanks to Eckhart Tolle, Byron Katie, and OSHO for their wonderful teachings.

 

Clearing up Eckhart’s view on desire

               Do not worry about desire leaving you; it will leave on its own. Wanting to not desire will make you think it will leave in some point in time. In fact wanting to be free of it is another desire. That will happen only Now, whether you're thinking about it or not. If you are suffering from something from wanting to be free from something that will only cause more suffering because you are waiting for some point in time to be free of it. When you focus your attention truly in the now, those thoughts begin to melt away, and what you once thought that was a problem is not anymore.

                You can waste time in a Buddhist monastery waiting to be enlightened, but the whole deal about enlightenment is that there isn't one. I'm not saying there is something wrong with that, but what happened when you thought about being in a monastery? Instantly already you stepped out of the now thinking you will be somewhere in a imagined future "enlightened". Enlightenment is about recognizing thoughts as just thoughts! What is left when you realize that thoughts are just thoughts? There isn't this I with ideas you have to destroy. This isn't to say to start destroying your thoughts because that is another from of resisting them.  To resist them is another ego, another problem usually equals victim of sufferer. So once you start letting go, you will see. For the first time you begin to open your eyes and give Love for the first time. 

                Desire will leave. Why you might ask?It is a part of ego's to make you believe that in some point in time you will be free. For some it happens, for some it doesn't. This is like playing the lottery, but in this one people always win.You might believe you might win because a lot of people win, but when you don't win,  you will suffer for it because it doesn't happen. You might blame other people. But blame your own judgments. That doesn't sound interesting anymore does it? When you are present with desire you see the futileness of it, because you create it now and only exists now. It is only a thought without out it you slowly see reality. 

                There is a song I really like, and I think that Jared Leto, a Lead singer for 30 seconds to mars really has some goods insights to his song. The song is A Beautiful Lie. The whole message of the song is that what we really want is the thought of Being in love rather than actually being in love. That is the beautiful lie. When we think we are in love we are just in love with that thought! THE thought of being in LOVE. When people say I am in Love, they are in Love with the "I" that is in Love. How crazy is that! Anyways be sure to check out his songs they are grand